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The Kindergarten Blues

Well, it’s official……. My baby is going to Kindergarten. Now don’t think for a second that I am one of those overly sentimental types that keeps every memento and weeps over every milestone. In fact, I’m not sure I ever got even a little misty eyed when my first two went to school. I think I may have even celebrated a little when my overly energetic middle child(who earned the name Dennis the menace early on) traipsed off for his first day of Kindergarten. During that period I was a Momma in the trenches. I was too overwhelmed to feel anything but relief about my eldest children heading out to a more structured and stimulating environment that was not a Mommy run DayCare.

I say all that to say that sending my third and last little one off to school feels a bit different. She’s our baby. The surprise sweetie that has been doted on by her Mom, Dad, and siblings. It’s not that I love her more than the others, because that is not the case at all. But instead she holds a special place in our family because she’s the last. Sending her to kindergarten feels like the end of something. The end of diaper days and sippy cups…..and the end of problems that are easily solved with a band-aid or a hug. We are closing a chapter in our family and I can’t help but feel a little bit of sadness that those days are completely behind us. Sure it was exhausting at the time in a very physical way. But what I have observed is that the challenges of parenting become more emotionally and mentally tiring as children hit the school age years. Suddenly their problems become bigger and harder to fix and at times we parents have to just sit back and watch them grow through painful experiences while we wait on the sidelines.

When they were still little my husband and I used to say that the days would drag on but the years seemed to fly by. When they enter the school age years what I’ve noticed is that both the days and years seem to fly by in warp time. Some days feel like a race to get everything done before we have to wake up and do it all over again. It’s harder to just slow down and sit in a moment… So on Thursday when I send my spunky, smart, hard working, last little sweetie to Kindergarten, there may be some tears shed. As a family we will be turning the page on a chapter in our life that held some pretty special memories. I’m hoping to make some new extra special memories in this next chapter too as this is the only year in our family history that all three kids and I will all be at the same school. Can you imagine my commute to work?! We may be saying goodbye to some major milestones but the cool thing is that we are also saying hello to the exciting new adventures that are ahead of us!


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